The second. The second before you die.
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I don't think Millennials will ever reach the same level of financial security that boomers had. It feels like I'm always treading water, only barely able to get by. I never have money to go on vacation, eat out, or buy a car. Everything is so expensive that I'm lucky if I don't go deeper into debt by the end of the month.
I wanna become an alcoholic but I can't afford that with my ~$100k salary.
After therapy
I relate heavily to the OP. Especially the past couple of days. I always just seem to get in trouble for just existing the wrong way... particularly at work.
What am I supposed to even talk about in therapy? I've tried it numerous times over the past several years, and I don't know what the fuck to say. And then when I do try to say something, the therapist latches onto some simpler and more obvious issue that I don't care about OR just ignores my concerns altogether.
I think therapy seems to work out better if you have one obvious, specific problem. Like I knew someone who was having panic attacks. Therapy helped her. I knew someone who was hallucinating and cutting herself. Medications combined with therapy helped her.
But if I don't have the one specific obvious problem, then both myself and therapists seem to get lost and the resulting sessions are ineffective .
"feeling like you're in trouble" is one specific problem. You might have other problems too but you can't fix them all at once. Focus on one at a time. Share the existentialist memes you identify with with the therapist.
They're going to want to unpack why you feel that way, and you need to be willing to do some introspection outside the session about why that is. Write down individual times, things, or places when you "feel in trouble".
Share the post you just wrote. Read it to them verbatim. You do have things to say.
If you go blank during the session and think you have nothing to say, write down things ahead of time and read them off your phone, even if they're "just" lemmy comments.
What are you feeling that you don't want to struggle with anymore? Is it guilt? Is it feeling in the way? Is it an unnamable negative? If it's the last one then you can probably do some work surrounding labelling your emotions, so that you can then apply logic to them- do they fit the current situation? Or no?
Finding a good therapist is like dating. You might not jive with everyone, and that's ok! It sounds like you would do well with one who either a) is cool with you coming to the session with a goal or who b) helps you set a goal for each session at the beginning. It sounds like your previous therapists weren't meeting your goals, but it doesn't mean it isn't worthwhile.
I'm sorry that you feel like you're getting in trouble often. I hope this feeling passes soon.
That’s the real answer. It may take a lot of therapy though
Imagine you have a shovel. And a mountain of shit.
Once you start working through the mountain of shit, eventually you can see the shit that was occluded by the mountain of shit.
It may be bigger. It may be smaller. But there's a lot there and you have to work through it anyway.
And sometimes disturbing the shit makes other shit that you haven't had to deal with in a long time come crashing down on your head.
And then you realize you put in all that effort to identifying your shit piles ahead of time and no one's there to give you a cookie for your hard work so you have to do it yourself, even thigh that's it's own pile, on top of the work of shoveling other piles.
TBH that's where I am. After learning and slowly coming to terms with the fact that I was in an abusive relationship for over a decade, I'm now at the point where I want to do things she prevented me from doing.
Like buying a sports car. I can't really afford it, but I'm going to talk about it until I can.
Haha same actually, 5yrs here.
Good luck on the sports car!
I'm just happy to try new stuff without that lead vest of anxiety. Go skating, get back into backpacking, drop a glass and just sweep it up without the world ending. You know, simple things.
Pfff, who can afford that? /s
Until you get the bill.
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After you go to therapy
About a week or so after you die.
unless the rumors are true
So hell is just all your dead relatives yelling at you for shit you did throughout your life?
what else would you call that
When we liberate ourselves from wage slavery
When the natrual progress of mankind stops being artificially blocked by Capitalism.
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doing worry, it'll happen, it's a big milestone usually celebrated with friends and family, they can it the funeral
Raised Catholic too, huh?
try meditation. contrary to what we're taught from birth, you CAN decide for yourself how you feel. it takes a lot of self-deprogramming, but it's worth the effort. that freedom, and the realization that this might be the only thing in life you DO have control over--the control you think you have over everything else is just an illusion. and that's fine
Do you have resources that teach you the basics of this deprogramming in a pragmatic, fact based way without too much nonsense?
i always recommend mindfulness in plain english by by Bhante Gunaratana as a start. not sure what you mean by "nonsense," but this book is just method: how to let go of things and find peace, where before we wouldn't even realize we just spent the whole day dwelling on something that irked us that morning, and can't figure out why we're so pissed off at bedtime. we're not paying enough attention to realize we're not paying enough attention. it sounds like a simple thing to fix but it's not remotely easy--people spend lifetimes working on this.
because psychology and mental processes are so subjective, it's different for everyone--the "facts" you'll find will be personal testimonies (thousands of years' worth). but there are studies if that makes it more "valid" for you.
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I work in mental health and have found that in general, people hate this concept. People can have difficulty tolerating the idea that they have any control over their internal experience, because the implication is that they are at least partially responsible for their negative thoughts and emotions. A lot of people will cling like crazy to blaming external factors for their condition in order to protect their ego (though not a conscious process).
The reality is the only person who has control over your internal experience is you, and research shows time and again that people's level of contentment is only partially correlated to factors like income and quality of life, because everyone gets to decide for themselves how to think and feel if they decide to.
Yes yes it's your fault your brain chemistry is imbalanced that'll be $500 pls
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If it's not for the ego then it's simply not having the cognitive framework. I think it's more common just to not know how to make a choice or that your choices are valid. At least, that would look like the same avoidant behavior from the outside.
people hate this concept
we're conditioned to hate this concept by capitalism. "you cannot just be happy don't be ridiculous. you need to BUY STUFF in order to be happy, otherwise you're doomed to misery 100% forever." it's deeply woven into the fabric of our whole culture, where we're comparing ourselves to everyone else all day every day.
so yea. we're taught to hate the idea that peace, happiness, contentment, etc can come from within, rather than having to "obtain" it externally (usually involving cash exchange). once this notion is thrown out the window, life becomes much simpler, smoother, less stressful
you need to BUY STUFF in order to be happy, otherwise you're doomed to misery 100% forever.
Most people need to work their 2nd or 3rd job to make rent and pay the bills. Which leaves little room for internal exploration, self actualization, or connection to a wider community.
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Early 40's and it gets worse every year... I hate hearing "life gets better as you get older". I feel like my 30's were mostly ok, but that sense of everything is wrong only grows each year that goes by. I miss my 20's and I know I'll never have as good of a time as I did then. My only hope is that if I make it to retirement, maybe then I can relax a little before I die? I forget what it's like to not have constant worries.
Don’t worry, now people in their 20s are feeling the same way. So at least you’re not alone.
Shit’s fucked
For some it comes with age, as they gradually give less and less of a shit. Around 40, maybe? Might stem from a mindset of: "You've already thrown me all the curveballs you can, world. You can't hurt me anymore."
Narrator: "Life could, in fact, throw many more curveballs."
Hahahahaha omg so true.
All I hear is a song from My Fair Lady: "Just You Wait, Henry Higgens, Just You Wait"
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As someone who’s reached 45… definitely not. I have way more anxiety, am more easily stressed, and constantly have imposter syndrome and worries I did not have when I was in my 20’s and 30’s. I’m used to some of it, but life now throws me different curveballs. 30’s were probably my best decade thus far concerning the OPs statement.
Exactly the same for me at 47. It's like you described my own personal experience.
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It only happens when you become insanely wealthy through no actual fault of your own yet think you are a self made billionaire.
This basically explains Elon Musk.
Ah! Now I know this one, it usually happens a few months after you shuffle off the mortal coil. Nothing to worry about, it's a problem that solves itself!
Other than that, I'm afraid you're stuck with it - a bit like marriage "till death do us part".
I find it easy to blame everyone else for the state of the world. So in my book, everyone else is in trouble.
Lol, is the asker ADHD?
I’ve got the opposite problem: that my parents don’t affect my life in the slightest anymore, and they generally don’t reach out, and go super long periods of no contact. My mom hasn’t even set foot in my house, ever. My dad will try to make plans and then never ever follow through cause he’d rather work twelve-hour shifts in a factory at the age of 73. A little voice in the back of my head reminds me I’ll never be grounded again, but… it’s sad about that? My home is messier than I’d like but cleaner than theirs.
I’m six weeks shy of 40. I’m also a trans woman, and I think that’s a contributing factor too.
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