cravl

I had to go into a partial psych care program because I literally was only eating like 1 meal a day, I was very underweight, and it was making the depression really bad because my body had nothing to work with. Even when the ADHD med wore off I had so little energy that I didn't want to find food before bed. The psychiatrist ended up switching me from Vyvanse back to Adderall, and then a month later lowering my dosage of Adderall from 30mg to 20mg. I definitely feel like my ADHD is harder to manage, but it seems to be the happiest medium I've found for the moment.

Without free will, true worship cannot exist. (If God is God, he certainly has the right to create us for the sole purpose of worshipping him.)

To your latter points, I agree that we know clearly what evil (a.k.a sin) is—sin is anything apart from God's character (e.g. the fruit of the spirit to start).

However, it's not up to us to "get rid" of evil, that's on God, and that's exactly what he did when he sent his son Jesus to die on the cross as a substitute for the punishment we deserve, and when he rose from the grave he signified that substitution was complete. If we truly accept that fact, then God considers us saved ("redeemed"). And, one day Jesus will come back and eliminate evil once and for all.

As to why God allowed evil to enter the world in the first place, well, that's one of the cornerstone discussions of Christian theology, I can't easily summarize that here. In short, a redeemed world can know God's love and worship him more deeply than a world which was never fallen to begin with. (And again, if God is God, he absolutely has the right to create us—and all of creation—for the sole purpose of bringing him glory.) Here's an excellent article that explains this more fully.

I'm gonna choose to believe you forgot the /s on the end of that... and that your sense of what is situationally appropriate humor was a little off to begin with. 😬

^...it's ^okay, ^I ^believe ^you ^can ^get ^better ^at ^it!

Honestly, as much as I'm grieved and angered by what the world is right now, I find it really hard to fault the average person for choosing ignorance in the face of the monstrous realities of everyday modernity. I know that things could be so much better, and I want them to see it too, and fight for it. (Thus why I made my account on slrpnk.net.)

But, it feels unfair for me to expect something of them that they may be unequipped to handle mentally and/or emotionally. Perhaps I'm just too nice—and perhaps that's the burden of having a big heart. Or perhaps I'm just too weak, and tough love would be more caring. I'm still figuring it out myself. 💔

For desktop, I've liked Lato, Source Sans Pro, and Inter to name three.

For terminal, I used Iosevka's customizer to create a gorgeous Fira Mono-like variant that I call Iosevka Firesque:

[buildPlans.IosevkaFiresque]
family = "Iosevka Firesque"
spacing = "term"
serifs = "sans"
noCvSs = true
exportGlyphNames = false

  [buildPlans.IosevkaFiresque.variants]
  inherits = "ss05"

    [buildPlans.IosevkaFiresque.variants.design]
    capital-g = "toothless-corner-serifless-hooked"
    capital-q = "crossing-baseline"
    g = "single-storey-serifed"
    long-s = "bent-hook-tailed"
    cyrl-a = "single-storey-earless-corner-serifed"
    cyrl-ve = "standard-interrupted-serifless"
    cyrl-capital-ze = "unilateral-serifed"
    cyrl-ze = "unilateral-serifed"
    cyrl-capital-en = "top-left-bottom-right-serifed"
    cyrl-en = "top-left-bottom-right-serifed"
    cyrl-capital-er = "open-serifless"
    cyrl-er = "earless-corner-serifless"
    cyrl-capital-u = "cursive-flat-hook-serifless"
    cyrl-u = "curly-motion-serifed"
    cyrl-capital-e = "unilateral-bottom-serifed"
    cyrl-e = "unilateral-bottom-serifed"
    brace = "straight"
    ampersand = "upper-open"
    at = "threefold"
    cent = "open"

He did not say to give all of your money to them though. He said to give the Romans just the portion that is owed them (and by extension, to anyone you owe money to).

The way caffeine works is that it blocks the receptors in the brain for adenosine, which is responsible for slowing down the neurons in your brain, making you feel sleepy. It also causes the release of adrenaline, which is a stimulant and thus can help ADHD brains focus. Additionally, it makes your blood vessels (especially in your brain) constrict, which can make other stimulants take effect faster. As if that weren't enough, it also slows dopamine reabsorption, which feels rewarding (the major contributor to caffeine addiction).

These are the upsides, but caffeine comes with serious downsides if you use it regularly (i.e. more than twice a week). In particular, it seriously inhibits your ability to get truly deep, restorative sleep, even if you only have it in the morning.

Tl;dr: It can make you feel more awake, but it can't replenish your energy stores. It basically puts a pin below the needle of your mental fuel gauge so it can't drop below half a tank, but doesn't actually fill the tank.

Read more in this fantastic piece: https://science.howstuffworks.com/caffeine.htm

Even more unfortunately that just makes me want to squoosh him more. 😅

Pizza bagels are pretty good, just toast a bagel, add sauce & pepperoni (and cheese if you want), warm it a bit more in the microwave.

Pepperoni in scrambled eggs is also ridiculously tasty, even more so on a warm croissant with a slice of melty provolone or havarti. Mmmm...

Fwiw, you can change the shortcuts for nano in your ~/.nanorc. Most of mine are the same as standard desktop editors, except undo is Ctrl+U because Ctrl+Z is commonly bound to suspend, and quit is Alt+Q instead of Ctrl+Q because in browser window terminals (e.g. Unraid) Ctrl+Q usually closes the whole browser (oof).

Now that is the definition of friend-shaped if I've ever seen it. 🤩☺️

Yup, they changed all the rail geometries, the old will be removed completely in 2.1. It's the main reason I haven't done anything trains yet. I procrastinated making new rail blueprints for the longest time, and then I decided to spend 8 hours making blueprints for a giant, fully modular city block design for 1-4-2-4-1 trains, which will be great... once I can actually afford it. So, still no rails, just lots of slow, inefficient "temporary(tm)" spaghetti. 😅 I'll probably have to bite the bullet and remake all my standard junctions for Fulgora though.