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[–] [email protected] 1 points 11 hours ago

Thank you! I hope for the best for you. I hope you can turn it all around again and make your past self proud!

[–] [email protected] 1 points 11 hours ago

Good points! I agree tbh.

[–] [email protected] 1 points 11 hours ago (1 children)

Or maybe we are just different kinds of people and thus get treated differently. Maybe if I was a cishet euro dude I wouldn't worry about it either.

[–] [email protected] -1 points 14 hours ago (3 children)

You can meet people online, I would be very wary as a tourist, most folks will only talk back if they get value from it, like assault, robbery or your blood🦇

[–] [email protected] 1 points 15 hours ago

No you misunderstood, I have had many traumatic experiences, I just have no trauma. Everything has been solved, processed or otherwise just didn't leave a lasting impact.

[–] [email protected] 0 points 15 hours ago

Exaggerated? Sure. It's the internet, it's how we write, but even the very title is prefaced with a "kinda".

I have absolutely no emotional involvement in this whatsoever, this is a pass time for me on the toilet. I really don't care either way.

The key is "I don't want" as in - not my preference, I still do nonetheless.

[–] [email protected] 0 points 15 hours ago* (last edited 15 hours ago) (2 children)

It feels great. I have a girlfriend I met off dating apps right before enshittification took full force in OKC, while we have our problems, we do our best and we communicate (the most important thing). I have many friends, some of which go back to my childhood, others are new, just wish I had more time to see them.

I got a job I like (albeit lots of changes atm as my manager and cherished colleague of many years is leaving), and it pays OK, well above median wage in the UK at least, I work from home so I save time and money on commuting and I can interact as little or as much with coworkers as I actually want.

My ADHD meds are working well and I'm able to look after myself and perform tasks more or less on time when I need to do them. I had bottom surgery and discovered I'm pretty much free of gender dysphoria - an ever-present mental anguish I suffered prior. I've been through a lot, always uncertain future - I was on the edge of being deported for many years, but at least I have a permanent residence now, so I cherish the good things. Used to be flat broke, now got a bit of money, so when my gaming PC broke it didn't even phase me, I always knew it as a luxury to not be using an ancient laptop.

When my parents found out I was trans, they disowned me, but as I was an only child and it was their dream, they still paid for my university overseas. I hated them for a long time because I was very much limited by what they would allow me to do, but now that I'm safely independent, as an adult I'm eternally grateful for the opportunities and love they gave me, even if I felt betrayed then and there, I've been doing my best to reach out and slowly get back in touch again, even if they're not exactly trans-positive as one might expect of ex-soviet citizens, they're not brainwashed Z vatniks, so there's hope yet, and I do love them, and have many olive branches, they keep slapping away, and I will keep extending them.

I have many hobbies ranging from music production to electronics (like just simple circuits with Arduino type stuff), learning guitar and on to self-hosting stuff, I've even released some music on Spotify for fun, I read a lot about the world in my spare time from philosophy to history to economics to stratigraphy.

For the last few months I lived somewhat rurally in a shitty downstairs apartment that actually used to be great but it had a lot of issues not least of which extremely loud, extremely shitty neighbours, that made me feel down for a long time but I actually managed to move, took spending my savings on paying double rent for both flats at once but I moved into a nice spacious new build apartment building with good sound proofing in what the brits call a "new town", it's a nice city, very modern, much cycle infrastructure so I think I'll take that up when I have money, and it's population density is quite low in the centre so I really enjoy it, feels like a whole city just for me haha, and it's never crowded at all so thank god!

It's not that I don't have problems, but none of them feel unsolvable as they once did, many times I often feel like I can do anything! Maybe even own a house one day!

Sorry, it's all over the place, but I didn't just want to say "feels great! Thanks sucker!" But actually explain why I'm great these days so that maybe someone somewhere finds some value in it.

I may come off as a sardonic asshole in my OP, and it is what I intended, but as the world is going to hell and I feel powerless to change it, I want nothing more than for people to find peace and happiness.

[–] [email protected] 0 points 15 hours ago (1 children)

There is no "their" logic or "my" logic, not all opinions are equal and not all are valid - there is only actual logic, the system according to which things either make sense or are nonsense. That's the system I would like people to use when justifying their viewpoints.

[–] [email protected] 0 points 15 hours ago

You identify as an anarchist (lol, of course you do) but you admire "Soviet tech optimism"

These are not in contradiction. Soviet tech optimism was a naive general societal belief in the power of technology to solve problems, but unlike American tech optimism it was about the problems of the proletariat and disconnected from the profit motive. I absolutely do not simp for the soviet union itself and have never stated as such. Generally speaking technology has solved a lot of problems, hence why I'm sympathetic towards the belief, as opposed to "degrowth" which is often tied in with Anarcho-Primitivism and anti-civ movements that have many problematic aspects when it comes to their distaste for technology in practice working to rob the disabled of independence.

You argue in favor of neoliberalism which is directly opposed to anarchism

I side with them as opposed to Anarcho-Primitivists and degrowth/anti-civ people.

They're not my first choice because as you said - it's not very left-wing or anarchist, but I genuinely believe that if these were the two options, I would side with neoliberals even though anprims are fellow anarchists because the former built a genuinely better world than what I think would result from the ideology of the latter.

It's called having nuanced, clear positions.

yet degrowth promotes sustainable technology.

This isn't correct.

My political viewpoints are sound, but you're right - maybe someone more knowledgeable than you, which I imagine is a lot of people, (though given some recent elections in the world maybe not), could engage with this and actually have a reasonable discussion.

is mediated by biology.

Eh, I wouldn't be able to have most of those experiences if not for technology. My eyes are meat and flesh, but without the silicone contact lenses on top, they're as good as not being there really.

So in many ways, it's mediated by technology also.

but you still rely on the very biological processes you claim to despise.

Never said I didn't? I would prefer not to, hence why I said I'd long for sacred steel in lieu of flesh lol.

You don't consider what happens if most plant and animal species die, or its devastating effects on food production, the climate and human survival.

Of course I do? I never said we should go out and destroy the environment now. Are you struggling to read, or something?

Most of the rest of us will be out embracing the chaos, beauty and unpredictability of the real world while you wither away, unhappy and unfulfilled, in the sterile prison you've created for yourself.

That's some crazy projection. I'm happy and fulfilled in my sterile prison, thank you very much!

None of that matters to you because your worldview doesn't extend beyond your home and wifi network. Of course the fact that billions of people find comfort and purpose in nature is incomprehensible to someone like you whose life is devoid of meaning.

More projection. My life is fucking bursting with meaning these days, every year is better than the last ever since COVID tbqh.

But yeah I actually made the post to see what the arguments were for liking nature, so maybe I could see it differently and enjoy it as well, but so far it seems the only commonality is a genuine inability to argue without resorting to ad-hominem and a shocking lack of reading comprehension.

[–] [email protected] 0 points 16 hours ago

That's why I said "in a vacuum" - as in, isolated from other factors including consequences. I do not in fact wish for ecosystems to be destroyed as I'm not an idiot.

I appreciate your input, but please just read the post before wasting time writing this out next time. Thank you.

[–] [email protected] 1 points 1 day ago* (last edited 1 day ago) (2 children)

No. I can't say I've had any "trauma" at all. I grew up in a safe and stable home to loving parents. Nowadays I have a pretty good life and my mental health is pretty perfect, thanks for asking

[–] [email protected] 1 points 1 day ago* (last edited 1 day ago) (2 children)

Idk I'm not hiding from anything? Like i can't really hide from these so-called realities, I just mitigate them as do we all by living in and perpetuating civilization by e.g. not littering thereby not fly-tipping and not attracting flies and other infestations.

What's exactly "dysfunctional" about these statements? How can a statement even be "dysfunctional"?

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Don't get me wrong: I certainly don't wish for corporations to destroy the environment for their own benefit, but primarily because I believe that if the environment is to be exploited for industry the rewards of that should be shared equitably amongst the workers in a worker-owner cooperative structure, and the spoils of it should be shared equitably across mankind, and not only those alive today, but also those in the future, hence we need sustainability.

Insofar as actually wanting to preserve it for its own sake though - I think it's meaningless, in a vacuum I would in fact prefer less biodiversity, especially when it comes to insects, and I would really like it if we could exterminate all species of fungi, mosses, lichen as well.

Where others see untouched ecosystems I see unused land that could be a nice city.

I'm an anarchist but I am firmly anti-degrowth, I would genuinely side with neolibs against anprims because they made a far better world even for all it's flaws. Doesn't help that neolibs have actual arguments and all anprims have is the "noble savage" and "appeal to nature" fallacies. Superficially I'm more on the side of soviet tech optimism if that makes sense.

Beyond the political, I don't really have any affinity for it, there are people who say various nonsense like "green spaces improve our mental health" whereas I find them mostly depressing and kind of out of place.

I am okay with parks in cities as long as they're empty and within reach of civilization, but green spaces like parks in cities aren't nature, they're a well curated almost entirely artificial human creation, an expressionist pastiche of green.

Actual nature is wildfires, cancer, floods, earthquakes, predation, parasitism, prions, wasps, itching, pain, burning, poisons, toxins, spores, fungi, spores, lichen, moss, mosquitoes, wasps, bacteria, sun overly bright, needing to pee, being itchy, negative emotions, reptiles, spiders, no amenities, dirt, dirty water (swamps), viruses, bacteria, thorns, stinging nettles, mites, ticks, lyssavirus, people turning to religion etc.

Flowers smell okay, but really air freshener smells better.

I find it all absolutely disgusting, and what's even more disgusting is that these things can affect my unfortunate meat flesh prison, it could make me sick with some COVID-over9000 - another of mother nature's little treats, and then ruin my plans for the day, or even my life.

Nature is pain and agony, and when it's not trying to kill you, it'll damn well do it's best to make you uncomfortable 24/7, it makes me long for the eternal sanctity of steel in lieu of flesh, and the safety of concrete paved city roads lit under a warm orange glow of an artificial street lights. Some nice brutalist architecture, flat colours, sharp geometric shapes - urban and industrial environments feel like home.

As long as there isn't crowds though - people are nature too and pretty disgusting as well, they are as irrational as any frightened animal and a vector for disease.

I never understood what the big deal was with staying inside during the pandemic. It's one thing if you have a shit place and you have to house share or live with parents, if you rent a semi-modern apartment for yourself, I don't see the issue. As long as you're comfortable and have plenty of space, what else is there? All the things one could want are on the internet anyway.

I much prefer the internet tbh, here I have control, if there's something I don't like, I don't have to ever see it again, but I can also engage with it freely without the interaction ever escaping my control, my agency is never impeded. The digital space is much more liberating.

Outside I can't really use an adblocker, or a waspblocker, or a sporeblocker, or a people-blocker.

I've read a number of posts like this on Reddit before and to get ahead of the usual replies:

You have allergies!

No. I don't have any as far as I know.

You just need to do shrooms

I have several times, though I kinda hated it, I much prefer acid myself, and it didn't change my opinion in the slightest. Best place to trip is at home, I can't imagine the panic attack I'd have tripping outside. Actually I can because I have. Would not do that again. At least it was in a business district and not in some ugly forest so I could duck into a Starbucks.

You hate animals

No, I've actually had pets. That said while I value the companionship I would prefer an artificial companion instead.

You just need to spend more time in nature

I've already spent way more time in nature than I'd ever want.

You should read about nature more

Yeah I have. I actually quite like reading about ancient creatures and whatnot, especially from the Cambrian period.

You're just born after 2000!

Idk how that one is relevant but I'm from 1998.

But you're part of nature

Yeah, I hate that. The bits about myself that I love are all that I managed in spite of it, not because of it. I will hate growing old as my meat prison rots and breaks down and I will hate having to confront mortality knowing there is so much to do.

You just haven't visited [x]

I've visited the French Alps as a kid and it smelled like pig shit and made me exhausted, I've visited farms and it smelled like horseshit and was dirty, I've visited Times Square and it was the happiest memory I had as a kid. As an adult I've visited all up and down the UK and Russia (the Baikal and Ural) and idk about the nature there, it's all just whatever and blends in.

At one time a field in the UK offered me peace when I needed it due to material struggles and I enjoyed it, (despite the unfortunate fact it was a reminder of wealth inequality because it was all privately owned by some aristocrat) or at least I thought I enjoyed it, now that I fixed it by improving my material circumstances and have no need for it.

EDIT: Because people cannot read, I've highlighted that I do not in fact think we should destroy mosses and lichen etc. and I am in fact aware that destroying any natural ecosystems has has serious negative cascading effects on everything else including human life and I do not wish for it because I'm not a moron

That's why I said "in a vacuum", as in -isolated from other factors. I'm glad this post has encouraged discussion but please just actually read it before engaging. The lack of reading comprehension on Lemmy is genuinely worrying.

 

I'm an amateur musician and I made this quite a while ago, I hope you like it and I'd love any and all feedback you can give :)

It was Inspired by this other neat remix I found way back: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=-Hsf9HGIRbM I seem to recall this one playing on Lainchan's 404 page or something way back? Maybe someone else remembers something like that?

 

I actually even liked the app. Bruh.

Edited as per rules:

This is a post about the newly-viral in the west Chinese social media app Rednote.

I actually liked the app and even said as much, however the app prompts a permission for "Making and managing phone calls" as you can see in my first comment (linked below), I felt it needed to raise this as a potential concern as it's suspicious.

Original comment is at: https://lemmy.dbzer0.com/post/35733739/16034665 And https://lemmy.dbzer0.com/post/35733739/16035177 And https://lemmy.dbzer0.com/post/35733739/16035273

Original post is above the linked comments.

The potentially offending text is spread across several comments, the ban does not cite any specific comment.

Modlog is at: https://lemmy.dbzer0.com/modlog?page=1&actionType=All&userId=7652836

Reason: Rule 1 on World News at Lemmy.ml, which goes as such:

No bigotry - including racism, sexism, ableism, homophobia, transphobia, or xenophobia. Code of Conduct.

What's even funnier is I'm a bisexual trans woman from Russia, I'm about half of those things they are banning me for being prejudiced against, a fairly regular visitor and commented on .ml, hexbear vet (also banned unrelated to this lol), actually a pretty big fan of Mao (though he made some questionable decisions) and have had a book of his quotes by my bedside for god knows how many years by now, it's my support network when I need to feel heard in rage against various bastards like landlords.

I even liked the app and said it's probably not malware in my opinion as someone with genuine qualifications and a dayjob of making such calls. I was frankly not just being not bigoted, I was pretty charitable too for a multitude of reasons, one of which is to make the tankoids at ml more receptive to it.

However I guess unless I literally mindlessly see mandarin and go soyjak over it every time it's not simpling enough. Tankies isn't even it, it's literally weabooisn for china.

 

Dafuck? Removed for rule 3? [email protected] what the?

As far as I'm aware running and getting DNS to work on a home network is precisely everything to do with self-hosting.

I get that I'm being a bit of an opinionated asshole, and maybe my post is not overly constructive, but shit, a good rant to start a discussion should not be a reason for removal, least of all for a rule that has blatantly not been violated and that's the only actual reason I can think of why I'd been banned.

A good rant is literally the most worthwhile content imho, a good hearty debate invites viewpoints and opinions, even if the OP is unpopular. I hate the sterile, overly polite, overly PC tone enforced on some Lemmy communities.

As long as no one is literally insulting other users or spreading misinformation or being discriminatory/xenophobic based on characteristics. I wasn't even swearing. I'm so done, I'm blocking all of lemmy.world until they get their shit together.

 

You can also show them from terminal via curl, by piping it into feh with dash for stdin

 

These are starting to really stack up with the nutty mods in some of these places and I'd like to keep score and perhaps display them somewhere. I'm wondering if there's a list?

If not, short of crawling every community findable by an account and checking banned status by e.g. attempting to post, is there a way to collate such a list programmatically with e.g. an API or cURL or selenium automation, given the structure of the fediverse?

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RetroArch never works right. Even once you get past the cores and all the other stupid bs, once you get to setting up the controls it never works right, most buttons just do not work in game, if they even work in the menus.

So many years, so much effort, all wasted.

It's still so much easier to keep BlastEm, Snes9x, Duckstation and whatever else installed, so much faster to set up controls and most of the time you don't even need to as everything works out of the box.

And yet plebbit will say nuhhh use muh libretro cores!!!!1 so heckin' wholesome Keanu chungus 100!!! I love my wife's boyfriend!!!!111 Thanks Reddit!!!!!

 

Why is the solarpunk memes community on this instance filled with such massively anti-left folks?

 

The concept of a public Unix box is neat, but why? Is this a way to connect with like-minded people? Is this locational? I've known about this for a while and I don't really understand the purpose. What is anonradio? Lipsy gopher show? I have so many questions, I'd love some answers.

 

I've found lots of examples in C of programs illustrating buffer Overflows, including those of pointer rewrites which has been of great help in understanding how a buffer overflow works and memory safety etc. but I've yet to be able to find an example illustrating how such a buffer overflow can rewrite a pointer in such a way that it actually results in code execution?

Is this just not a thing, or is my google-fu rust y? Tried ChatGPT and my local Mistral and they both seem unable to spit out precisely what I'm asking, so maybe I'm wording this question wrong.

If anyone in here knows, could point me in the right direction? Thanks y'all btw love this community 🧡

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