KernelTale

joined 10 months ago
[–] KernelTale@programming.dev 2 points 3 hours ago

I wanted a pfp of what I wanted to be and now it is what I am. I wanted to be read as cool but now I have Many from Honzuki no Gekokuji, because I love literature and I see myself as a small girlie.

[–] KernelTale@programming.dev 4 points 11 hours ago

Water sprayed on a cat

[–] KernelTale@programming.dev -1 points 18 hours ago

God I hate Finland. I have spent half a year in Finland. But yeah the licorice was good

Finally, transracial representation

[–] KernelTale@programming.dev 4 points 1 week ago (1 children)

I didn't have problems with Linux in this regard but I did have them with Windows where it bricked itself after an update.

[–] KernelTale@programming.dev 4 points 1 week ago

They have more content. I spent barely any time there but I still rather type search query Reddit rather than Lemmy. And I have 2 communities for RSS.

[–] KernelTale@programming.dev 6 points 2 weeks ago

I thought the joke was that the outer layer was an onion and the inner part was plastic filling.

[–] KernelTale@programming.dev 15 points 2 weeks ago (7 children)

Sadly it would a really massive country

[–] KernelTale@programming.dev 3 points 2 weeks ago (1 children)

Easy to hide breast buds. I wouldn't really recommend it. I didn't really have dysphoria until then. I just wanted to look more feminine and it would be easier for me to wear what I want. Now I have biochemical dysphoria and even though I like my body more I have a hard time figuring out my goals. Use it as a reassurance that it is what you want, not to find out. Also the mental recoil of pausing for the next month or even longer can be extremely severe and in my case even suicidal.

[–] KernelTale@programming.dev 4 points 2 weeks ago (1 children)

Who knows. Maybe you will be different. Maybe you will be the gayest of us all, the one who dismantles capitalism, and the one who will make transitioning into a helpful stress-free process. All hail out supreme leader. /I just feel silly lately. You can just ignore what I've said

[–] KernelTale@programming.dev 6 points 2 weeks ago (1 children)

it is but it has been only 4 hours (or so idk; time is broken on this OS) since we had a small discussion.

[–] KernelTale@programming.dev 9 points 2 weeks ago* (last edited 2 weeks ago) (3 children)

This feels personal :P

 

Lynee from Genshin Impact fan art: https://www.pinterest.com/pin/lyney--74872412550593991/

Image I was not able to trace to its origin: https://wallhaven.cc/w/2emr8x

 

So I have accepted for some time now that I am a trans woman. I wear feminine clothes in public from time to time and it’s at the point that I don’t in the moment care if somebody stares at me. I have been voice training also for about a month and it feels great to be a woman among accepting people. I have also tried (DIY) estrogen and I love its emotional changes. The first day felt absolutely divine and I do not want to stop, however I am scared. I am lazy and I am not sure if I can do it every single day. These thoughts have been hunting me every day for the past week for multiple hours a day. Yesterday I was completely paralyzed by my own thoughts and I couldn’t do anything for 12 hours (-> I have probably failed my exam today), because the choice of facing the world or giving up estrogen is too hard. It got to a point that even suicide came to mind, just so I don’t have to choose. My gender dysphoria boy modding exists but it’s not strong. I am going to visit an uni psychologist soon because of this.

My question is: How did you figure out that this is the battle you want to fight?

Image from: https://br.pinterest.com/pin/39758409204847070/

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