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• 1st panel : spongebob in a stand caption reads "Single trans woman"
• 2nd panel : a huge crowd gathered around spongebob
• 3rd panel : spongebob adds a little paper on his table saying "I don't use my penis"
• 4th panel : the whole crowd left.

Hey everyone, I'm pretty sure I have a deep rooted fear of abandonment, I'm scared most of the time that my friends will leave me once they find someone more fun or interesting to be with, I don't outwardly act like it but it's really like that and it makes me feel anxious to start new relationships, I don't know if I can trust anyone actually likes me, it's pretty bad because there is this girl I LOVE whomst I spend all my time with she's told me she loved me AND I STILL CAN'T BRING MYSELF TO ACTUALLY BELIEVE HER. It's destroying me. I feel like no one I meet will meet my need for reassurance, it's probably making me needy which I can't help, but which definitely makes me less desirable of a person.

How do I even get better? I don't know why I'm like this...

I currently need something like that but there is no equivalent I've found on here (Lemmy)

I've been 10months on HRT so maybe it's still too early to tell but I genuinely believe I won't pass unless I get FFS, my face was quite masculine before HRT and I think it's not possible to change some stuff without surgical intervention. I have a prominent brow ridge, my jaw is square and my chin is cleft. No matter how hard I try with makeup, voice, eyebrows and hair, I still get sir'd once people see my face. Sorrowfully without much hesitation. It makes me feel terribly illegitimate to call myself a woman when I look like this.

My dysphoria has lowered a lot since starting though and I actually feel alive for once in my life. But maybe it would be better identifying as a femboy until I can get FFS...