EggInDisguise

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[–] EggInDisguise@lemmy.blahaj.zone 15 points 3 hours ago (1 children)

Depression is a bitch, and that makes you not want to clean. Then the grossness makes you more depressed.

Never ending loop.

[–] EggInDisguise@lemmy.blahaj.zone 2 points 3 hours ago (1 children)

I actually saw that automatic oil application had been added at some point, that's a huge bonus!

There's a few other things I remember having issues with, but they were all minor individually, so they've probably been improved on.

I definitely need to give it another try, and this announcement certainly makes me want to pick it up again soon.

[–] EggInDisguise@lemmy.blahaj.zone 19 points 5 hours ago* (last edited 5 hours ago) (4 children)

You seriously need to stop following me. Imagine having the gall to tell a woman to calm down while talking about men being shitty about women seeing makeup. Fuck all the way off.

Edit: meh. Blocked

In the case of Riker v William, neither are the original at that point, but the one stranded was the "more" original, especially given he hadn't used a transporter in 7 (I think) years, while Riker continued as normal, dozens per month for years.

Again, they both still are William Riker. Just one is "more" original.

It's a real ship of theseus situation.

[–] EggInDisguise@lemmy.blahaj.zone 6 points 6 hours ago (3 children)

Damn, I REALLY need to finish the third one... I haven't even finished the base campaign.

It's not that I don't like the game, I am fascinated by every part of it, and it's been installed and updated on my computer for many years...

It's just so in depth, I do not have the attention span and dedication I used to in optimizing builds for a game. I felt like I was on hard mode if I didn't use the potions and sword oils and things, but I kept forgetting what to use, and that's assuming I even had the right stuff on me to begin with...

That's probably why I keep going back to skyrim more often, it's combat is more simplified and casual. Which is funny because I always download mods to make the game more like the Witcher and improve combat....

I'll finish it one day, in my most recent playfhrough I had just gotten to some giant squid creature in a swamp, and kept dying so I just didn't keep playing anymore.

[–] EggInDisguise@lemmy.blahaj.zone 8 points 6 hours ago (5 children)

I'm sorry, that sounds awfully close to whining about women wearing makeup.

So just a repeat of 2024 with pictures of covid related things.

My favorite moment related to this was when someone I know posted a picture from 2003, and the insane line stretching for miles to get to the gas station that was literally by my childhood apartment. I recognized it immediately, since construction around this stretch of road has made things easy to estimate age if you grew up there as long as you can see enough buildings.

"this will be the future if OBAMA WINS! COMMUNISM MAKING BREAD LINES!"

I commented with an explanation that this picture was from 2003, in response to the US government deciding to invade the middle east again in order to get rich again. People were trying to get gas, and it made the trip home take so long that my mom my sister and I WALKED the last 3 miles, and my dad and a neighbor that walked out spent several hours slowly pushing it home. So if you want to demonstrate a communist world, DON'T USE EXAMPLES OF CAPITALISM IN ACTION

My comment was removed so I retype it, copied and pasted a few times for good measure, then the guy blocked me.

That was a fun week. Cops kept having to cut through lawns and medians to get to the gas station, where fights kept breaking out when the pumps backed up.

That was the first time I ever saw anyone draw a gun in public, too. We were getting gas one day and a line started forming, someone with a gas can walked up to a pump that someone was pulling up to and they started screaming and pushing, then the clerk came out with a shotgun and said the cops are already on their way so sit the fuck down. Shit was Fucked up.

Natural wildfires have been artificially intensified both by climate change, and humanity's obsession with not letting nature do its thing.

Wildfires are natural, they happened all the time without human intervention. Not like a constant thing, but often enough.

Humans moved in and decided if they see smoke on the horizon, it must be stopped. This kills the natural cycle that clears brush from the forest floor, and allows new life to bloom.

With forest floor scrub is basically at an all time high due to no small periodic fires, when it DOES burn, it really fucking blazes and creates insane conditions that basically wouldn't exist otherwise.

So yes, it DOES apply to natural wildfires, the wildfires wouldn't be so bad if humans didn't make them worse through mismanagement. Thus the contamination hazards would be less intense.

Tell me you were raised upper middle class without telling me you were upper middle class..

My poor ass had a Walkman CD player that was half-broken when it was given to me and I carried that thing until 2006.

A couple middle aged techbros without kids that my dad knew were on this level, but nobody I knew had anything close. Most had either a good stereo or a computer. I didn't have both until 2010.

Is it weird that I get nostalgic for an experience I never had? (the experience being the above picture) I can see myself chilling on a Friday night playing Red Alert, listening to gangstas paradise and alannis morisettes "ironic" (in that order for the lols) and printing off the guidebook for super Mario 64.

[–] EggInDisguise@lemmy.blahaj.zone 7 points 6 hours ago (1 children)

Q isn't confined by the passage of time as humans are.

Q is an energy being occupying a higher plane of existence (note: this does not require morality and I'm not sure why anyone thinks "higher plane* requires someone to be morally good)

Q was punched because Q allowed himself to be punched. Any other Q would certainly not take that kind of thing from a bug. When bugs bite, they get swatted, unless you want the bug alive.

Sisko may think he's tough for standing up to Q and not indulging shenanigans. Sisko is tough for many reason, but not this one.

Sisko is lucky Q is fascinated by humanity so much or he would be shrunk to the size of a Proton and tossed into a neutron star to be squished for all time.

[–] EggInDisguise@lemmy.blahaj.zone 39 points 6 hours ago (27 children)

"man develops app to discover women are cute without makeup, more at 11"

Any man that whines about women wearing makeup in any way is just signaling to everyone he's a waste of their time.

I don't even need the mod log to figure out what this said.

Almost nobody cares if you personally care or not, my dude.

The internet isn't designed just for you

 

I absolutely have to get my own manicure kit and polish, I am in love with these nails!

I have always let my nails grow long (attracting many comments over the years because boys aren't supposed to have nails don't you know) and finally decided to get a manicure and polish.

Accent nail pride flags so I can flip off transphobes!

 

I have to wait until June 17 😭

But it's on the books, it official. Now we wait... Totally patiently and not at all wanting to cry every day in the meantime.

But today I am in a hammock, I am wearing a skirt, a comfy top, and tonight I am meeting with the Trans-formers and after the meeting we are going to a bar.

It is a good day.

I am super excited for my appointment!

 

Ugh I hate voice training so much but after yesterday's breakdown while trying and getting two "voice analysis" results showing "0% female, 92% male" I decided to watch some videos I've seen recommended, and honestly YuukoEX was the one that helped me the most because I feel like I can try to emulate her voice better than others I've heard.

After spending yesterday on exercises and trying to figure out various muscles around my throat, I managed this:

It's not much, but it's an improvement!

Also, I'm trying eye liner today! It's a little smudged in one or two spots, but it makes a HUGE difference in my own perception! I even took a face selfie! On purpose!! (for myself I am not nearly confident enough to post lol)

So if you need the reminder, I guess here it is!

 

Went out to thrift shops to look for more tops and jeans, and found a pair of stretchy jeans that fit me nicely, as well as some pink sport shorts I can wear around the house.

The leaf leggings are my spouse's, shes a bit of a pothead when it comes to clothes lol

I don't have a mirror at home to get a full view of myself, so this is the first time I'm seeing the full view all at once of myself in full girlmode. My mirrors at home are all too small or fixed to walls lmao

The jeans:

I've tried on all the clothes from the thrift stores and they almost all fit, now once they get washed I'll have more things to wear! I'm still on the lookout for a bra my size (I'm not shopping at big box stores where possible, and I don't get thrift store undergarments) holy shit I knew it was bad for cis women who are well-endowed, but just finding my band size WITHOUT the F cups is proving quite difficult... I may have to order online. I should have bought from leolines but they're so expensive and I already spent over $50 on them this month...

Good store though, I asked them to put a small paper with "happy birthday Courtney" on it since it should arrive around then, and they were quick to respond, and quickly figured out my preferred name isn't what the order is under. 10/10.

Someone was trying to get past me while I was browsing and said "excuse me ma'am" and I have never wanted to cry more in my whole life. I didn't say anything since I'm very very early in voice training, just tried to do a high-pitched "mhmm" and stepped aside. I had to sit in the fitting room for a few minutes to collect myself.

I had to change into sweats and a t-shirt to get back into the house, but I'm still riding my high from earlier!

Next time I go out I think I want to wear a skirt but the tights I bought to cover my legs got a rip in them thanks to a park bench I sat on last week :(

I'm too self conscious to not wear something covering my legs though, especially since I'm still trying to figure out consistent hair control. I'd like to try waxing but since I want to do a FULL waxing, I need a Trans-friendly place to do it, or someone who knows what theyre doing at home.

Maybe soon I'll get brave enough to wear a sundress!

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Around other people!

Edited a few times for formatting, clarity, wording etc...

For context: my spouse found a coffee and chat group for learning sign language. They are going deaf and I would like to learn while they can still hear. This group largely consisted of an LGBTQ+ group that met for their own coffee and chat scheduled right before the ASL group meets. We have befriended many of them and were invited to join the earlier group. We've met tons of great people over the last year.

I've been exploring things for awhile now and I finally came to the conclusion on being trans. My... wife? (they've also been exploring things and have recently come to the conclusion they are non-vinary. Still feminine presenting and have been trying out being more masculine and more feminine on different days, neither here nor there sorry for the rabbit trail I'm just excited) but my spouse is fully supportive and has been encouraging me to try on various bits of clothing to find my size (luckily we are similarly built in a few areas that makes sharing some clothes easier) and I have been looking at various things to find my own style.

I have 0 style, at least when it comes to matching colors and vibes. I just wear what I like, whether the colors clash or not or whether the styles match or not. Part of that is low budget for clothing. My male clothes have always been "as needed and wait until they're unwearable in public" before replacing, but I don't think that will be the case with my feminine clothing. I don't want anything to get messed up and I have been having to stop myself from going on online shopping sprees the last few days. I have always hated shopping for m*le clothing, but I have been looking at so many different kinds of women's clothing I am getting a little overwhelmed. I haven't measured myself for anything in years since I had been trying to repress things and have put on some weight.

To the point of the post:

I bought a black "skater skirt" since it was stretchy enough to get over my (let's be honest, larger than healthy) thighs and stomach. Also a pair of black tights, and a pair of silicone "bra buds" to give my (overweight) chest a bump up in cup size. I put it on, did my hair a bit (I have slightly curly hair and have no idea what to do with it beyond shampoo and conditioner every 2-3 days) and we left the house. My spouse assured me I looked cute, and we met some LGBTQ+ friends at a diner and went hammocking in the park. I don't have a shirt that fits yet, my spouse has always been a "jeans and a t-shirt" person except special occasions.

I am still pretty new to trying to present as a woman, and after today I'm more certain than ever. I could barely talk in the diner since I was scared someone would hear my voice and become a problem. Yay rural Ohio. My face is already masculine enough, I don't have makeup and have an obvious shadow. Can't shave since I get really bad ingrown hairs that get infected, so I use an electric shaver on my face that gets very close but not close enough to allow ingrown hairs.

I didn't get a chance to look at myself in the mirror (had a friend stand guard at the restroom to change, phobic roommates meant I can't leave the house in girlmode while they're here) and when I got home I managed to sneak inside and went to the bathroom. I cried for a few minutes. I don't think I look "feminine" per-se but oh my god I finally felt right. None of the other people in the group said anything other than one NB/tmasc who said they loved my necklace (cheap trans flag with a moon a friend got me awhile back)

I don't have anyone to talk to about this stuff who isn't my spouse and knows everything so I'm sorry if I'm gushing but I'm just so happy after today. Nobody said anything to me, but a few people were staring just a little bit too long for comfort.

We are meeting with a friend later this week to work on makeup, and have loose plans to get nails done in the next 2 weeks. I cannot wait!

I have always been one of those "everyone wants to be a girl, that's just how all boys feel, right?" kind of people, and used to sneak into my sister's room after laundry day and snag a couple items before she got home and put them away and it always made me happy, so honestly I should have come to the realization a lot sooner, but I grew up in a super religious house and even the thought one of their children might be gay sent my parents into a spiral when my sister "spent too long in the bathroom with a friend" (she IS bi but on this particular day was just having extreme endometriosis issues with a sympathetic straight friend)

For awhile I had just convinced myself I'm just a shitty person and it's just a fetish

<TMI, possible TW for anatomy>since I would sometimes get erections when I dressed up and while it happens less often, it still happens sometimes and I'm still not feeling great about that but from the trans women I've been talking to lately, that's not uncommon at first. I can't speak for anyone else and only some have told me they had the same/similar experience.

but conversations with many trans people over the last year have put to rest many of my concerns and explained many of my feelings.

So now, after many long days and nights of figuring things out, many tears through many years, never fully fitting in, I am ready to say it.

I am a woman. Hello, world!

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