ev1lchris

Hi all.

I am in Hawaii and almost ended up in the streets. I went from a mental hospital, to a crisis center, and am lucky I had money for a board and care.

It's really gnarly, today I saw my roommate take a dump because he did not bother to close the bathroom door. My roommates might be the type of people you find on Skid Row, but that's okay because everyone deserves not to suffer.

I am on Oahu. I have been on Social Security for mental illness for 20 years. I am thinking it would be best to try and start my career so I have so much money that being on the streets and in the boarding houses are less possible. However, I suffer from Major Depression and PTSD so I don't know if I should leave the safe enclave of Medicare in a country that doesn't have universal healthcare.

I applied for a local 7-11 and Office Max job. I'm beginning to look at other places to live which are comparable to what I'm currently paying ($750 a month). I feel like I have hit rock bottom and sometimes I just feel like offing myself somehow.

Since it's the weekend and I don't know what to do I have been playing Escape from Tarkov. However, I feel super guilty playing videos games. I did go on LinkedIn and applied for two local jobs though.

So any advice? Am I a major loser who is better off dead? How can I avoid homelessness for the rest of my life? How can I avoid getting so sick I need to go to the mental hospital? Does anyone else have a similar story?

Is there any way to get either YouTube Premium or Spotify at a heavily discounted rate? Are there any cheaper alternatives?

Has anyone here ever gotten off of SSDI through Ticket to Work? I have been trying for a while.

I have SSDI due to mental illness.

Do you regret it? Were or are you scared? Is your life better?

I am a Hawaiian resident and have lived on the Big Island for 9 years.

I am going arrive homeless on Oahu. I have SSDI and Medicaid, but I am scared out of my mind.

My friend says he will help me but I am still scared.

I really want to start the life I couldn't start on the BI. I want a career in Information Technology, a few friends, and maybe some stuff to do.

Any advice? Any words of encouragement?

Can you be on SSDI and live overseas, in say Thailand, with no problems?

What happens when review comes? What if they want an in person review?

I have never been good at making money or having a job.

I have been on SSDI for Major Depression the last 20 years and have had multiple hospitalizations for wanting to off myself.

I feel quite worthless and useless. I have been trying to get a job for the past 5 years or so. I have had some success with a couple of internships but nothing real.

Now I am outside the country and the home I was living in is being sold and I am being ordered to vacate. I'm not even in the country yet so I might be losing all my personal possessions.

I really don't know what to do. I am thinking of ending my life. I don't even know where to go for treatment.

I'm homeless when I get to the USA.

I'm separated and a lot of my family hates me.

I kind of want to kill myself. I'm in Bangkok and a lot of people commit suicide here.

Hi everyone, I live in HPP. Anyone else on the Big Island?

Is the horror movie 'Grafted' any good?