erin

hmm it normal now

i think lurasidone(antipsych) messing up that why i going soon to stop taking this shit

i want nixos mobile.....
but i have oneplus 9rt with snapdragon 888

idk im become silly like a child keyboard is custom on lubed gateron smoothies the black thing with stickers on dead zones is graphic tablet which i use sometimes to draw or just as mouse computer is mac m1 pro with NixOS installed i think should be better to post on c/unixsocks@lemmy.blahaj.zone but i dont have thigh highs......

why u so cute?

its about setup overall

true, boykisser really describes me

also i look up at photos pre-puberty puberty start

my skull isnt changed at all

even think im look better now than boy pre puberty

only diffrence i see now that i weight gained and grow up a little bit

so i really avoided male puberty coool, if i didnt get estro one year ago i think i ended with $uic*de because i was VERY DYSPHORIC in deep depression, and happy now (ignore brainworms im really happy)

that makes me a less dysphoric
why somedays no dysphoria some days have dysphoria
but is not estrogen levels because at high levels i feel same lol

ah no, stop i know: i was bumped with antipsychotics 2 years ago because one psych think im schizo(hopefully others think im ok) then got psychosis and motor disorders on them and other psych prescribed latuda so i still cant found time to tape it (im at min dose), think this drug mess up my dopamine now

true, thank you

also if i somehow gain money for ffs in future which bones are clocky and i need to shave

yea my voice is naturally girly
testosterone are near zero stable for 1yr
estradiol - sometimes is waaay too high, ~200pg now, last bloodtest said 469 pg and i lowered back (should be 150+ pg, even 120 pg at lowest give me strong T suppression 0.64 nmol)

dont ask me why i cut hair but short also okay for now
i want to grow out to chest and colour to idk what color

on reddit ive never got detailed answer imstead i will got depressing "you re valid" "4tranner" (they think are only 4tran dysphoric about every mm l)