Grieg popped into my head in February or March. I am sharing this on my mastadon profile as well. I know this community is pretty quiet but whoever sees it I hope you like it.
I had a longwinded mental breakdown that spanned a few months. I was having severe depression and other issues — paranoia, delusions, hallucinations, derealization, anxiety attacks. I’m not quite well at the moment but it’s looking better after an adjustment in my meds. For the first time in months, everything is feeling a little less crazy and the world doesn’t feel like broken glass to my senses.
I just wanted to say that you describe the experience of hurt so well. You put it down in phases, and I experience it exactly like that too. It’s like a shock to the system, I’m just stunned at first, then the hurt kicks in. :( I’m sorry you’ve experienced this. I hope you don’t feel deterred from this social platform. There are jerks on the internet but there’s also a decent community here and we want to try to lift each other up when we can. You’ve got this. And it’s okay to take breaks from the internet too.