I'm sorry about how you're feeling and I hope the title isn't serious. I'm in no position to help but I think that if this is really bothering you, you should maybe reach out to a therapist. I'll just add something to pick your brain: maybe it's not you, maybe the people you're interacting with are not the right audience and you should try to find someone that better shares your interests.
I'm sorry about how you're feeling and I hope the title isn't serious. I'm in no position to help but I think that if this is really bothering you, you should maybe reach out to a therapist. I'll just add something to pick your brain: maybe it's not you, maybe the people you're interacting with are not the right audience and you should try to find someone that better shares your interests.