I'm on clonidine for ADHD. I can actually stop myself from speaking out of turn now, so maybe it has been a little sedating xD
Dating is kind of a nightmare. I know people say anyone can find a partner, but that doesn't take into account things like sensory issues or hard boundaries around other things that keep us sane. I told myself a few years ago that I didn't want to date while I'm university, but honestly it's been so nice not forcing myself to fit into other people's boxes that I might just stay single even after I earn my doctorate
I'm also with you on refusing to participate in a misery machine for a living. I hope you can hash out some kind of misery escape plan with your therapist tomorrow

Edit: When I made this comment the person above was being unfairly down voted. What they said has scientific merit and the reader can easily verify.