CookedOmelet

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[–] CookedOmelet@lemmy.blahaj.zone 6 points 22 hours ago

All the time. So then I overshare and explain the reference entirely...

[–] CookedOmelet@lemmy.blahaj.zone 7 points 1 day ago (1 children)

Thanks. Yea I'm doing ok atm, it's just a constant nagging that won't go away

Hell yes, new style unlocked for future me

[–] CookedOmelet@lemmy.blahaj.zone 4 points 1 day ago (1 children)

I'm fighting it with logic and FAX. Eventually my emotions will get it

 
[–] CookedOmelet@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 points 1 day ago* (last edited 1 day ago)

Similarly, as a new trans-femme I can get this app to show >90% female, and 5% male, just by pitching higher, but my voice clearly just sounds like a softer/lighter masc voice. My base voice isn't that deep, but it is very raspy and clumsy, so I've been struggling too.

@Courtney You got this, just follow the usual guides on resonance and fullness, I only just started recently, but I can tell the resonance stuff helps, and I'm moving in the right direction. Here are the two guides I've been following, if it helps.

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1j_-8dndFzKTX0xBSF15ZEJWdw958ryh0IPKq1sz8p04/edit?tab=t.0

https://old.reddit.com/r/transvoice/comments/d3clhe/ls_voice_training_guide_level_1_for_mtf/

One thing that really gave me hope is this clip from the first guide: https://clyp.it/xavctl0s

And here's the frequency difference of the above clip, showing before and after, NOT my voice FYI:

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[–] CookedOmelet@lemmy.blahaj.zone 2 points 1 day ago* (last edited 1 day ago) (1 children)

Since I came out to myself (and a few others), it's been a mixed bag, leaning towards better than not.

I ugly cried twice, maybe for the first times in my life, first while rewatching GitS SAC, ep2. That might have been the most obvious trans allegory that totally flew by me when I first watched it in childhood. Then I cried just as hard when I started playing Celeste yesterday, when right at the beginning, the dialog from level 1 said something like "just breathe, you got this" (also I suck at platformers).

I was able to talk to one cis-female friend over online DMs about it. I had met her irl once, and she's super nice and supportive. I'm looking forward to bonding with her more over girly things :3

Weight loss has somehow become effortless for me. I had been struggling with my mental health for about a year, thinking it was just ADHD, and coping with food sometimes. But now it's all super lucid and I don't feel the urge to just eat when I'm bored.

Voice training sucks. Picking a new name is hard.

Occasionally I have doubts since my guy brain is still dominant. I wrote down all the really obvious reasons to myself as notes, and that helps a bit. It's just one of those things where intellectually I know I must be trans, but emotionally I'm not really there yet.

I have my first appointment at a local clinic at the end of this upcoming week, and I'm really excited.

You sound amazing!

[–] CookedOmelet@lemmy.blahaj.zone 2 points 3 days ago (1 children)

This is so cuuuuute

Everyone's been so supportive, thanks T_T, my thoughts have been a hot mess, just a mix of anxiety and happiness, with moments of lucidity.

[–] CookedOmelet@lemmy.blahaj.zone 10 points 4 days ago (3 children)

I feel like I'm about to be in a similar place soon.

My egg just cracked after boymoding without much issue for 35 years. I'm initially feeling great but also having moments of doubt.

Anxious but excited to work through it, "imposter syndrome" and all. I hope for the best in your journey too.

Thanks, it's looking pretty good. I'm in Alberta, Canada and there's a few local programs that look great for me.

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My egg finally cracked, or more like it has been cooking for a while and now it is finally done?

I turned 35 recently and despite all the really obvious signs over many many years - into gender bender anime/manga, occasional crossdressing for "fun" at home, is it just a kink? huge Miku fan, do I like her / want to be her? etc. I always kind of just compartmentalized it as a kink mostly. And I have a pretty stable life atm, I'm doing well, but maybe I felt a few things didn't fit.

I've always been slow with my feelings, but I've been reading all these experiences on egg_irl and transmemes lately. Especially Brook2Valley comics, and these memes/posts below really resonated.

https://i.imgur.com/nwKuHa6.jpeg

https://i.imgur.com/6GdK410.jpeg

https://alx.lemmy.blahaj.zone/lemmy.blahaj.zone/post/40941931

https://alx.lemmy.blahaj.zone/lemmy.blahaj.zone/post/41147595

I did some broader research to really confirm things for myself and damn, just admitting it finally felt euphoric. So much that I couldn't sleep and apparently it has fixed my ADHD.

I'm not even remotely ready to share with my irl friends yet, but I started looking at health care options locally that are trans friendly.

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