I'm part of a mutual aid group that delivers groceries to people every 2 weeks.

We sometimes get urgent requests on off-dates.

I don't think I can explain how satisfying(?), motivating(?) it was to randomly get off work one evening last week with instructions to buy $50 worth of groceries for someone I'd never met and to drop it off.

To be part of someone finding relief in a terrible situation.

The hardest part was honestly finding a group with flexible opportunities that I could contribute to regularly. Most organizations that ask for volunteers often want business-hour availability, and 6+ mo commitment - ie, good for retirees.

Yeah, they seem to be more afraid of shit they made up than anybody else.

Like part of the reason small town conservative types don’t like the ideas of cities is because they’re scared of being mugged.

I live in fear of the “asleep” people being in charge.

I would rather be a John Brown in a horrid world than be "sane man" in the same such world and boy am I about to give into my madness and zealotry.

I am a somewhat empathetic person.

I was raised in a family of people that had no empathy.

My grandmother met all of the criteria to be labeled as a sociopath, psychopath, something, and she raised her kids accordingly.

So when I was a kid, like my little sister would grab my arm and rake her nails down my arm to just grate as much skin off as she could because she was upset over something.

And I would complain, and I would be told that maybe I shouldn't have upset her.

And also being a kid, sometimes I would cry.

And my grandmother came to me and was like, you're bigger than her, why don't you just do something about this?, implying that I should physically beat my younger sister up.

And I said, I do do something about it. I cry.

She thought that was hilarious. She told that story as a joke any time I was brought up for the rest of her life.

To me, when I see someone else crying because of something I did, that causes me emotional pain because I'm normal.

So I was attempting to cause emotional pain, not on purpose, but because I was actually hurt, as punishment for the action that my psychopath sister, who was raised by my psychopath mother, who was raised by my psychopath grandmother, had taken.

But the concept of feeling emotional pain as the consequence of your action choosing to hurt another person is and was so alien to the people in my family that it being explained to them comes across as humor.

Needless to say, I don't associate with my family anymore. I have not talked to any person that I am blood related to in four months, and even that was just a quick text.

People say I'm weird. Okay, I was raised by a very weird family in very weird circumstances, doing my best to be sane and normal in a weird situation.

It's very much the same for being woke when opening your eyes to be woke today is like eating lunch in a room full of dead bodies.

Eighty million terrorists? Think I finally get what "blue maga" means x(

Everyone who shows up to wave a sign at one or two No Kings parades as the extent of their “resistance” is a MAGA enabler as far as I’m concerned.

Start fighting or stay the fuck home, you virtue-signaling clowns.

Smarter people are more likely to be depressed. Just a filter there not a direct correlation.

They put ICE in the airports, they’re sending them to polling places, they bought the voting machines. Soon there will be a critical mass of people who have nothing left to lose. A Constitutional crisis and a confrontation between the civilian population and the fascist uniparty regime like nothing we’ve ever seen in modern times is imminent.

Don’t forget, this is a bipartisan effort that has been planned continuously for decades, with constant escalation. It’s kind of funny that Trump fucked up a war the MIC has been planning for that long, I dare say fortuitous for all parties, but we can’t lose track of the fact that the Democrats are running “block tackle” for republicans on the war powers resolution, and that ALL of the war mongering taking place has the ultimate goal of confronting China.

The uniparty is real. The ratchet effect is real. The “deep state” IS real.

See:

https://resistir.info/livros/rebuilding_americas_defenses.pdf

https://www.brookings.edu/wp-content/uploads/2016/06/06_iran_strategy.pdf

https://archive.org/details/gov.gpo.fdsys.CHRG-111shrg52971

https://press.armywarcollege.edu/cgi/viewcontent.cgi?params=%2Fcontext%2Fmonographs%2Farticle%2F1420%2F&path_info=2395.pdf

And all deliberately incompetent things Chuck Schumer, Hakeem Jeffries, et al have been saying. Fucking traitors.

I haven't listened to Knowledge Fight for a while because I'm watching my own mental health a bit, but ol AJ has never sounded actually happy for more than an episode or two. Hatred like they have sounds like they sleep well, but they're fucking miserable too. J.K. Rowling could shut up and just enjoy being rich, but she still has to find someone to hate and hurt. You wouldn't really hear about a happy person.

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