Ausome Memes

Nothing new about it but they know that in their hearts. They get mad and call it something new but for those of us with this new knowledge and understanding of ourselves know its all bull.

My dad was probably on the spectrum. He never drank or smoked because his dad did. That and it would have cost money in his never ending quest to have more shit than anyone else. His addiction was greed and control. He would have a meltdown/anxiety attack and scream in my face for various failing such as being like a slow gaited mule. I would never be as good as him at something because I was left handed. All in all my dad was a total POS. A disgustingly mean POS.

My Grandpa was one of the sweetest people ever. Until the family abused him into quitting alcohol and tabaco. Then he was as irritable as my dad. He never completely quit though. Alcohol was the only available method of treatment he had and he used it well. He learned to never drink except when there was no possibility of being caught.

My first drink of alcohol was with him and it was shine. Shine like you see in the old movies. Straight our of a stoneware whiskey jug. He would pick it up once a year up north in the hills. He always poured it into those jugs. It just wasn't right if it wasn't from those jugs.

For nearly twenty years I used Alcohol and weed to treat myself for ADHD and probably autism. One of the few regrets I have now that they are gone is that I never told my dad about it. It would have infuriated him and that would have made me laugh.

I drank and smoked weed for nearly twenty years until I got treatment. Mainly for the ADHD. I've never been officially diagnosed and there is little point in it now. I know who I am and understand mostly why I do the things I do. This is something none of them ever had.