Interesting read.
I'm also an atheist looking for a religion. Though, for moral reasons I reject any organized christian sect. They are all guilty in being manipulated in getting the US to where it is now, and I refuse to let them think they've converted an atheist.
Like the other commenter I've turned towards pseudo bhuddism. For me the morals and everything can be logical no issue. The real human desire we're missing is community cohesion. A group of diverse people with a shared spiritual experience to ground us in the truth that we are social animals.
I have a few posts about it, but to me god is a conception of communal love and cosmic probability to which we can offset anxieties.
And just like the other poster, I am also practicing occultism and satanism as well as Bhuddism.
I don't know of I'd recommend satanism just because I don't think it's conducive to community building.
You wanna join my cult?
I'm joking, but I'm legitimately fascinated by the fact that this thread seems to have attracted all 4 people on Lemmy who are atheists that have toyed with a paradoxical atheist religion.
Maybe I shouldn't have been posting in the religion community these last few weeks lol