Zebrafive

Im happy for you that it worked out. I feel I am happy with the outcome of the whole thing even it may have been brief compared to others.

I am worried and excited about medication. I often se e posts with people in similar situations stating they take 2-3 medications sometimes 1 multiple times a day plus the other 2. I am certain I will fail to do that slme point. I am also certain on more than 1 day I will be successful, should I accept this route. Question is how successful, or unsuccessful would I be? I suspect it will be very hard and or unlikely given my other habit issues (eating, brushing, sleeping, waking, etc etc)

Ill check it out

He did not diagnose autism which I dont think really disagree with.

I am diagnosed ADHD Inattentive Executive function difficulties Depression (Anxiety, CTS) (These were more notes than diagnoses.

I do believe the way he explained how mood (depression, anxiety) can impact functioning and life in general really made a lot of sense. I will say the methods were not as rigorous as others have mentioned, there was an intake (1 hour), some forms i filled out, some forms people who knew me filled out, (difficult to get those done) and then a presentation of diagnosis after 'clinical impressions'.

He said the depression and anxiety is foundational snd more important to treat than the ADHD.

He did not confirm or observe-repetetive motions, difficulty with textures, lights, or sounds, or restrictive interests. These were the the cutoff and I scored at or below all Autism spectrum batteries / tests.

What led me to suspect Autism was simply my longstanding feeling of outsiderness. And a distinct lack of social network and feeling irritable and stressed after doing what other people do (eating dinner with several people, going to club, sitting around and talking about last sex things, etc etc )and people often remarking to me how I am different or unusual or eccentric or weird or smart (i am not smart truly, but apparently I know more about a lot of different things than others apparently but i wouldnt claim tha other people do)

So that is how it went. I already felt so confirmed thst I had ADHD tha it wasnt surprise.

Unless I am locked tf in ('hyperfocus') lol

Thanks

An understandable sentiment.

Should we rename all conditions that have high comorbidity? Deprexiety is some letters that would produce some sounds when spoken [rhetorical].

I will return to this comment often for the link, very helpful. Thanks.

Hmmm I didn't know this.

So during the assessment there should be two evaluator? Amd if there is only one, maybe I should be suspect?

I use and to begin sentences now, I believe to be acceptable by some style guides or general practice. Perhaps some do not, opinions?

Thanks for the reply

I find taxes, for example, to be inconsequential, immediately. I also find taxes to be...I cannot start until I get every iota of paperwork needed and not needed but deemed important by myself for unknown reasons. And then I dont get those papers, or I do but I dont actually get the papers I need only the accessory things I felt very important. Somewhat overwhelming when combined with other tasks. "Gotta do taxes" "but i NEED to so laundry" "gotta fold clothes, BUT I dont really" so on and so fourth.

Thank you for your reply. I suppose what I need to do is be more mindful of symptoms and 'watch myself more closely' until the assessment.

I do find moving my toes up and down is comforting, sometimes rocking my upper torso (when i know im not being observed) is also comforting. But it feels natural like probably everyone does that a little bit. Especially when very stressed.

The social criteria is the main mover or primary motivation for seeking diagnoses. I dont know if it this or that disorder but I have always felt different amd been described in various ways as being different. I find it bery hard to imagine how one can meet friends, maintain friends, let alone have a long term romantic partner who lives in the same household. I never make eye contact as it makes it me lose my train of thought.Eye contact seems like a thing that is directly opposed to meaningful conversation, how can anyone focus and fully flesh out a thought when staring at a goblet of eye. I do feel as though I have higher than average knowledge of how others feel or what their emotions are when speaking to them. I believe this to be an adaptation based on my life.

A mannerism I've been called out on is that my vocal volume is so low thst people cannot hear me and then I will begin to shout a few randomly. This is because I randomly remember that I am prone to speaking too quietly. This has resulted in comedic situations, and people being genuinely upset (angry) thst I was yelling at them.

Thanks foe the reply

Ah this was a thorough reply.

The memes are fairly relatable.

No one has diagnosed me. I am speaking to a psychologist whom I specifically asked for an autism and ADHD diagnoses. Im awaiting the actual assessment after filling out a bunch of papers.

A lot his questions like: do you often not hear your name? Do you find a particular texture uncomfortable? I am find myselfing answering no. It has happened, I believe several times, but its hard to recall these things. The only stimulation I find quite irritable is like a club atmosphere and large crowds in grocery stores or other brightly lit clinical settings eith crowds. Clubs make me feel immediately irritable and tired amd stressed

Our government is run by Vogons

Time to read yes

For me its the attention amd focused I've got time, just not tje attention and motivation (I fantasize but procrastinate)

I have been the 3rd or 4th dune book for about a year now (I have been on the last 50 pages or so for probably 6 montjs)

I have resd the first half or so of Don Quixote about 3 times

I habe now started to read Herodotus Histories for the 2nd time (didn't finish last time stopped around half way thru Book 2)

And I made the (fortuitous?) mistake of starting Hitch hikers Guide to the galaxy twice now and I did really enjoy it right off the bat, so that one might rise to the top of the list lol

I have also begun reading Amadis of Gaul due to interest in Medeival Chicalry novels and I've yet to finish King Arthur (Mark Twain) whereat I only have maybe 100pgs left. (Not a good book, TBH but it gives some background to Quixote as does Amadis of Gaul

LOTR is definitely also in this ridiculous list of want to reads. As is

Divine Comedy Aeneid Decameron Pilgrims Progress Infinite Jest Grapes of Wrath Something by Ishiguro Metamorphosis etc etc etc

I should make a post about this so.I can properly.vent instead of 'hijacking comments'

Yeah I get it and I dont deny that. Having never read the books though, I find the movies to be somewhat difficult to follow and with the exception (probably) of the first movie, I simply dont find them memorable or ranked high in my own mind as something I want to re watch.