Um, I gave up and went through a period of acute suicidality that required intervention. I didn't die, but the parts of me that worried about stuff sure did.
I am much happier now because I know now that I can check myself literally whenever I want.
So, you know, however you want to clean up the phrasing on that, I guess.
Oh fuck yeah. That movie was wild and Sir Patrick Stewart delivered a truly evil performance.