KernelTale

joined 10 months ago
[–] KernelTale@programming.dev 16 points 2 months ago (3 children)

Yeah.. my looks like:

  1. start crossdressing
  2. start HRT
  3. admit I am trans
  4. pause HRT
  5. find out what kind of trans I am
  6. research how to achieve my impossible goals Step 5 repeats with step 6

My gender is on a non-binary spectrum and I hate it. I wish I would be cis/trans man/woman. I am planning on lowering my T a bit and I am considering to come in peace with breasts and bind. Or who knows. Maybe I will grow to like the things I've disliked as my self expression progresses.

This would have been so much easier if my country legally believed in existence of enbies and gave me raloxifene.

[–] KernelTale@programming.dev 2 points 2 months ago* (last edited 2 months ago)

I read a lot of manga etc.. When I saw this I've almost read it manga style and then I was like: wait I am on Lemmy and then I've seen that I have failed.

[–] KernelTale@programming.dev 7 points 2 months ago* (last edited 2 months ago)

I tried being more feminine in public and it was unpleasant caused by my head alone even though I've went with this "gay-ish" look outside multiple times, so I tried to be masculine (in my head) and I got a sudden urge to wear a skirt and I got teary that I am not a girl. How do I get better at reading my own emotions?

[–] KernelTale@programming.dev 2 points 2 months ago

Fuck it I am buying a dress. (Probably not this one but still)

[–] KernelTale@programming.dev 13 points 2 months ago (1 children)

Yes, it is also totally cis to wish for a more feminine appearance and trying estrogen.

[–] KernelTale@programming.dev 4 points 2 months ago* (last edited 2 months ago)

I did as such. I have been a month on estrogen with my mind swinging with this decision in intervals of a few hours to 2 days. Well now I broke all of my syringes just so I don't do it again just because of a mood swing in a stage where everything is reversible or at least can be hidden. I have small breast buds but I like them and they will for the most part shrink. I want to continue but I need more time I think.

[–] KernelTale@programming.dev 16 points 2 months ago (2 children)

Good/bad/sorry for you. Either way you shouldn't encourage stupid teenagers to get themselves into potentially dangerous relationships.

[–] KernelTale@programming.dev 3 points 2 months ago

Mine doesn't but I will welcome it none the less

[–] KernelTale@programming.dev 2 points 2 months ago (2 children)

I will bring alcohol you figure out where we are going to go.

[–] KernelTale@programming.dev 6 points 2 months ago (1 children)

To the hell with Windows. Linux is my one true love.

[–] KernelTale@programming.dev 4 points 2 months ago (1 children)

Same, I dislike that not only I have to buy gifts but I also have to receive them?!

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