It was a very slow clicking. I used to be the classic tomboy child who would hang out with the boys and feel really awkward and uncomfortable with girls, like i was performing. With the guys i could just "be myself". Puberty was hell and it made my friends stop seeing me as a fellow human. I tried complying and "acting as a girl" but the more i forced that the weirder it got and i was just so depressed.
When i was 18 i started being exposed to trans stuff online and questioning "whats up with gender, what really makes you a man or a woman?" And then took 2 more years to realize i found no answer to what made Me a woman. Realized then i probably was not a woman. The more comfortable i felt in my nonbinary identity, the more i realized my truest happiest self was a very masculine person. I realized i was a man. And ive been trying to become one (or look like one) ever since. I was deep in denial until i was 25 tho. I guess i still kinda am
It was a very slow clicking. I used to be the classic tomboy child who would hang out with the boys and feel really awkward and uncomfortable with girls, like i was performing. With the guys i could just "be myself". Puberty was hell and it made my friends stop seeing me as a fellow human. I tried complying and "acting as a girl" but the more i forced that the weirder it got and i was just so depressed. When i was 18 i started being exposed to trans stuff online and questioning "whats up with gender, what really makes you a man or a woman?" And then took 2 more years to realize i found no answer to what made Me a woman. Realized then i probably was not a woman. The more comfortable i felt in my nonbinary identity, the more i realized my truest happiest self was a very masculine person. I realized i was a man. And ive been trying to become one (or look like one) ever since. I was deep in denial until i was 25 tho. I guess i still kinda am