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I survived 3 cancers and 2 amputations. Trust me, it gets better.

Hey bud. You got to me on one of the worst days of my life. But I am not choosing to end it. Go take a nice shower, a walk outside. There is a lot to finish here in life. The best thing we can do to combat the state of the world is be the change we wish to see in it. I. Taking ourselves out just makes the world worse.

Living is terrifying. It is the scariest thing anyone does. But you will find the strength you need to keep going and change your life for the better. And there will be so many people who will be thankful you did.

Hey man. Don't know if you're still around or if you'll ever see this, but I decided to listen to Hemispheres after reading this. It's pretty good, you have good taste. I think whatever happens, I'll think of you when I listen to that album.

I dunno, just thought I'd say that.

Hey dude. I don't know you at all but I can promise you it gets better. Not right away. And not without effort on your behalf but it can get better.

Your little girl won't understand. She's going to have questions for the rest of her life that she can't ask because you won't be around to answer them.

I was right where you are right now a couple years ago. I'm talking blitzed out of my mind sitting on the edge of a bridge ready to jump.

I completely understand wanting to check out. I've been there. But the ones who love you will never recover.

I've seen too many peoples lives permanently change forever because someone close to them killed themselves.

Please don't do it. Go hug your daughter and make sure she grows up feeling safe and loves.

Hey it's 11 hours later, just wanting to check up on you. Hope you are well.

Dude please don't at least for your child, she will always be better off with you around.

This video has kept me going sometimes when nothing else will

You have a wonderful girlfriend so you're already winning. Get a hug from her and go face the consequences with your roommates. It sucks but you'll win in the end.

Get a crappy job for now and bear through it for a few months.

If they kick you out then your free. It sucks being homeless but you get to come back from Rock bottom on your own terms.

Get a pass to a 24 hour gym where you can take showers and even kill a lot of down time by working out and improving yourself.

But once it's over it's over and your legacy will not be good

Take everybody's advice and make your legacy awesome!

Hey Logan don't let that voice get to you. I was also in the position where it seemed like it would be the best option to just end it. It does change, like simply can't keep being bad. When life gets me real down, I tell myself "this too shall pass, it might pass like a kidney stone, but it will pass"

Life can and will be good once again. I know you don't know me, but you must believe me <3.

If you want to, please write me a message and we can chat a little^^ I don't mind an info dump or two and a few rants.

Love kamilla^^

Your daughter needs you, Logan. Stay here for her and for us!

Please, don't.

Stay with us.

I really, really hoped that you changed your mind, but

Listen to some Rush (hemispheres specifically) for me and punch some Nazis.

🫡

Just stop. Take a breath. You've only got a couple of dozen of years to be alive, and all of eternity to be dead. There's no rush to make a decision you can't undo.

Give yourself time to take a step back from your pain. Eat a good meal and distract yourself with your favorite show or game or person. Take time to heal. If that means putting the rest of your life on hold, do it. No one wants you dead, and there are amazingly good things waiting for you if you can pick yourself up and get through this.

Please don't.

(Please call a friend or family member if you can, or call a helpline: https://988lifeline.org/get-help/ If you've already taken an overdose of pills then please call 911 right now and get medical help.)

Logan, I don't know who you are or what you're going through, but whatever it is, it's not worth this.

Your feelings are real and valid, and I'm sorry you're in such desperation and pain that you would consider something so drastic.

Your value as a human being is not tied to the amount of money you have in the bank, whether you have a career, or any other superficial capitalist Americana bullshit like that.

Becoming an insurance salesman is not what life is about, nor is it the only chance you have to make things better for yourself. If you can't afford rent, that's your landlord's problem for now. Being broke isn't some crime that deserves death, nor is it something that you can't improved.

Things are bad. I understand and feel you. But they will get better. I'm asking you to find hope in hopelessness, and to believe in a future where you and the people you love can be happy. I believe that you can do it.

You clearly have people who love you and care about you... and even if you didn't you can always love and care about yourself.

Please call a friend or family member if you can, or call a helpline: https://988lifeline.org/get-help/ If you've already taken an overdose of pills then please call 911 right now and get medical help.

Yeah politics and work are trash, and money fucking sucks for everyone but the super rich. But there's music to be listened to, pizza to eat, nuts to bust, weed to smoke, movies to watch, games to play, long nights with friends and family, making art and music, and just chilling in a big ball of blankets.

It shouldn't be up to YOU to pay the ultimate price for a society that's been engineered to rip us off. Don't fuckin' do it man!

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