I am neither Muslim, nor Christian: but only someone identifying a key resource on a topic for you to consider.
https://www.kobo.com/us/en/ebook/answering-jihad
That is written by a former Muslim, specifically on how he found some things problematic.
If you want well-considered points to dig into, his book would probably be much more significant than most internet fluff.
Whether you, or any other, find it helpful, that was the only intent: to give deeper, sharp focus, so your lives could gain from meaning in whatever way you want.
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