Aphantasia 💭

I don’t know if I have it. And a bunch of quizzes and articles don’t seem to answer my questions. So here goes…

I can “picture” a lot of things. But more often than not, these depictions are not really “visual”.

I was intrigued when (about 10 years ago) my SO said that she could close her eyes and it was just like if someone turned on a projector behind her eyes. I’ve never experienced anything like that.

If I’m asked to picture a red apple, I will believe that I did just that. But I don’t “see” a color. You might say that I experience the feeling associated with “red”.

And some times it’s the opposite. I recall a feeling, but it turns to shapes and colors in my mind (though I still wouldn’t describe it nearly as “vivid” as actually seeing something colorful).

Even more, if someone describes a scene, I can “redraw” it in my mind, but it might resemble an impressionist painting. Or I “see” lines gradually sketching something on paper.

Remembering real experiences do “draw” something in my mind, first with muted colors, and then I superimpose the appropriate colors on top.

Somehow colors seem to be involved in some way or another (I’m terrible at picking colors that “look good”, even when I have them in front of me).

Maybe I do have aphantasia. Or maybe I’m looking too much into it. Any thoughts?