Transmasc

You aren't a mistake. You are an amazing person who is realizing that perhaps some people may not be worth being around if they are going to constantly deny your own lived experience and try to use a book of fiction to beat you into their own idea of submission. A book that has been rewritten and translated to the extent that no one can ever follow it all the way properly and if they did they would seem incredibly ridiculous in today's society.

I think you should follow your heart, it sounds like you've already come to some good conclusions about this. Maybe your friend will come around some day but who knows. But for now, I would start thinking about cutting contact and letting them know why you are doing that. I would also recommend seeing a therapist if at all possible. It helps so much if you can find one you trust.

Keep staying true to your self and keep listening to your guts. Follow the positive vibes. Sadly not everyone in your life is going to accept the transition. But there will always be those who will accept you. You can do this!