LGBTQ+

There's a strong possibility my major depression is related. I was a very late bloomer, and was antagonized by school sports teams and their coaches when in primary school. (It was the eighties). My body hair has always been thin. Only in my fifties have I been able to grow a moustache, and then with no small amount of cultivation. I have a full head of hair at 58 even though the men on mom's side of the family go bald in their thirties.

I've also been a meek, gentle soul, all my life, and for multiple partners, was able to be the one who didn't rampage with lost tempers. My passivity may have to do more with ASD and not having the impetus to assert my soft boundaries.

Curiously, I was conservative in my early twenties, which was all undone as the premises my ideology was founded on were demonstrated to be false. Actual facts and studies pushed me to the left with the rise of the internet and access to more factual information. I research out of habit.

ETA Questions about low T rose in my fifties when my libido bottomed out leading to the end of my relationship of twelve years (it wasn't the only factor but it was a factor). Now I look at porn and my brain doesn't understand what the curves mean but knows they're important. Now I have yearnings for some kind of ambiguous contact maybe more than cuddling... though I'm also touch starved right now, so that's a factor. I'm not yet at the garlic-bread threshold and wish my brain would make up its mind.