I don't know where to post this (or if I should, but I'm lost). Skip to the end for the "too long, didn't read" version.
So, this may sound kind of crazy, and maybe I am. I live in a van, and I managed to live 3 months in the outback, some 120km west of Bourke. No one lives there, I didn't even find signs of humans where I was staying. I thought I was safe.
But I didn't know they round up the sheep by plane, so eventually they saw the van from the plane and I was told I probably should go since this is so weird.
I was going every 3 weeks or a month to Bourke to buy food and get water. It was literally the only time in my life I felt really happy. I've always struggled with depression, but now I understand that my problem is other people. If I'm alone, I can have a (mentally) normal life like other humans. This has been 2 months ago. I still haven't recovered after experiencing happiness for the first time. Life has lost all meaning and I'm just living because I'm not dead. I have to do something or go back. But I can't do what I did again. I'll live in fear of being found out.
So I want to find a property for sale that's far from people, but close enough that I can travel for food (maybe up to 200km), for maybe a maximum of $150k, but hopefully less. It can be pretty small, as long as no one can kick me out and it's far away from people. I can't find anything like that, or even much more expensive. I called a real estate agent in Bourke and he said it's impossible, only people who know people, and only massive lands. Unfortunately I found I'm incompetent in self sufficiency (I can hunt but I didn't have the courage to kill and I couldn't find plants to eat there), so it needs to be close enough to a town. To be clear, people are what I'm afraid of. I need to feel safe, to know I won't see any human, and no human will see me.
So, tl,dr:
I need a piece of land, even if small, for hopefully less than $150k, a maximum of 200km from the nearest town, but with no one around the land. Better if it's in the outback. Is there some kind of professional I can talk about that? I am completely ignorant of these tings.
I may remove this post, since I don't know if I should be posting this. But thanks for any help. The story is a lot longer than that, but I guess it's enough info.
I love your story, it really resonated becase you found your solution but now you need to navigate the travails of living outside the stupidity of modern society.
It s a pity, i had 100 acres, lived at one end in a small coattage, you could have lived at the other end, bush in between and never been disturbed.. Wince.mobed to North East Tassie.
I had as a simiakr atory, not depressed but never fit in andndint want to, the way we tread heavily on this planet disgusts me :)
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You could buy some land, get an owners builders permit and slowly start building a mud brick cottage ? Get an Logosol rig and do your own timber from the trees you need to clear, thats exactly what the owners of the place I bought for cheap did.
For me it was better because i could have some chickens, a veg garden, planted a few fruit trees etc i also was luckly enough to find a like minded (f) parter, lot of work involved :) there were a few 100 like minded people scattered around similarly, so a community of weirdos :) You'll get nabbed eventually living in a van if you're not building a house (i think?) Its supoosed to be temporary.
You have a van, pick a nicer place then fucking Bourke :) try the Northern Rivers ?
In the 60's it was called an alternative lifestyle or hippies, now you're seen as a weirdo, like me :)
Put your criteria into realestate.com.au (vacant land or house and land, $150k) and zoom out to all of Australia. There was a cottage and land in Adamoka the other day for $150k, zero neighbours. Beware fire risk !
You're not alone in these feelings, seems 1/2 Australia is depressed, that they then vote for thier opressors is bemusing. Perhaps you weren't depressed (clinical depression I mean) but just saddened because you didn't see a way out, now you have one :) Good luck my friend!
Thanks for the comment. I kind of gave up on everything. I still feel bad every day but I got used to it. The idea that I can escape is just an illusion and will lead to more disappointment. If you don't have any hope, you can't be disappointed :)
I'm not living in Bourke though. It's a horrible town and I just went there to buy stuff and leave as quick as possible. I'm kind of just anywhere I end up being.
And yeah, I get kicked out some times, but it's not as bad anymore because I don't have any attachments to the places I'm staying. If you don't like where you live, it's not bad when you have to leave. It should be temporary but I'm not rich enough to have many choices and I think it would be too difficult to rent a place without a job and rental history (and I need a job anyway for that since my expenses would explode).